Trying to recover from an affair when only one is seeking help isn't the easiest thing to do. He knows he screwed up but doesn't see that it was a relationship issue or something. I'm not sure. He said it just happened. Whatever.

I guess what I wanted to say was how difficult it is to refocus upon the relationship. I'm just starting to deal with the anger and hurt and when I look upon him, I certainly don't see desire. I see anger and disgust and a thousand other feelings. But not desire.

Is this going to pass? How am I supposed to work upon our relationship when this is what I see? And yet I'm still expected to "go on". I'm really confused.