I think you do have to feel worse before you start to feel some relief. Reliving traumatic memories is very difficult and very painful. Finding a therapist who takes things at a slow pace so as not to overwhelm you is so important. It took me 18 months before I felt strong enough to even mention some of my memories. Slowly I am finding I am more able to talk about them. Many times I have wanted to give up, but I can see that with time and patience I will finally feel some peace. Good luck, take care X