I'm sorry that your feeling that way. I wish that I can tell you that it's going to be okay hun and that its all going to go away.

My abuser alter likes to cuss me out and put me down when I'm down, something I do goes wrong or I get embarrassed. Usually after a few put downs and feeling like a screw up, I'll realize that I'm actually listening to him dissing me which makes me so mad at him and myself that I'll tell him to "shut the f*** up and to get out of my head". He'll either clam up or try to reason with me, and then eventually go away.

I wish it was like that for you dear.

I hope that you get to feeling better.