I had believed 100% that just by learning the truth I would feel so much better; that it didn't matter what the truth was as long as I knew. In my that t session I came to realise that it isn't true, unfortunately. After that session I was so unsure and confused, and the not knowing was making me so anxious. I went home and had a session with a reputable online psychic. I only gave him the briefest of details and left out as much as I could. What he came back with, though, has more-or-less convinced me that something did happen to me when I was 6. What he wrote was just about the same as what I wrote in my diary 3 months ago. He had no knowledge of this whatsoever, and his answer could have been anything. So now I feel worse than ever! I truly thought that if I found out that 'it' was true then I could get on with my life; I could begin to work on it and heal and finally put it all in the past. But because I still do not have a definite memory of it I have doubts lurking there. There is too much evidence saying that it did happen; I just don't want to say anything definite if there is the slightest doubt that it might not be true or that it isn't true. I am just so confused still; and on a downward spiral...