Sorry to hear you are feeling this way. I have felt the same way as well recently. Luckily, an increase in one of my meds has helped. I also have children and it's hard. There are days that I don't run errands, too. There are days I don't even get out of my pajamas or take a shower for that matter. Sometimes, we just have to allow ourselves a "day off." Be kind to yourself; you are not a failure because you didn't run errands. You are doing the very best you can with young children and a medical condition that sometimes makes life hard to live. Try to take care of yourself, be kind to yourself, give yourself a break.....

As far as hearing about your cognitive issues, I heard the same thing from my therapist and doctor. I would complain about my memory and they would say, "that happens to me too. It's just part of having kids." I was so tired of hearing that! I can really relate. I finally referred myself to a neuropsychologist and had testing that showed decreased memory ( 1 percentile) and overall cognitive functioning was way below where it should be based on my age and education. Finally, I have confirmation and validation. Bipolar is a thought disorder and a mood disorder both. It DOES absolutely affect cognition and mood both.

As far as the move, I agree with the other comments. Must weigh the pros and cons and I really agree if you do move, get a mother's helper or a nanny. If your husband is making more money, that might be something to consider to put in your budget.

Bottom line- I know how you feel and I can relate to every single thing in your post as so many others here do as well. Hope you start feeling better very soon.

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