This time last year I was inpatient, the first admission of three that year. It wasn't until the last one in November/December that things actually improved. This year has probably been my most stable for quite a long time. But I am still self injuring, still stockpiling medication, still get suicidal thoughts. And urges are beginning to get stronger. The days that I feel bad are increasing once again. I'm thinking that this relative stability will be over before long.

But tonight I'm going out for my birthday so gonna try and ignore those fears for now and hope that I can have a good time and don't do anything stupid!