I had a request to speak on the phone by an English native speaker.
I really need to improve my English but how am I going to be able to communicate myself in English when I barely can't communicate with people in Spanish. I had to say, sorry I can't fo it.
It tasted me so bad. It's another lost opportunity. The story of my life.

In another ocassion, I was invited to participate in a group in my city with English native speakers and I never dared to attend.

I went to Ireland and on the fourth day I felt like a lost child and had to quit.

It's not only my avoidance but also bc of a complex I always had about not being intelligent enough.

I'm so tired of this.