I tried to stay off medication for about 6 months but the metabolic changes scared me. I didn't like the feeling of my body consistently speeding up and then having to take some Zyprexa to get it back to normal.

I didn't have much family support through the process to deal with the psychosis so I gave up and told my doctor I was willing to get back on medication. At that point I was kinda angry with my wife's family for calling the cops on me so I took an extended break off work which led to me resigning.

It feels like once the road on medication is started its hard to get off that road. Especially when the psychotic symptoms develop. For me they weren't terrible, but coupled with the metabolic changes I just didn't have anyone comfortable to rely upon to help me break through. People act like medication fixes the issue and staying on meds will fix everything, but they don't have to take the medication.

I figured the best way to get back at my wife for putting her trust in her parents over me was to lose my job. Maybe she will need to rely upon them for financial support.