Lately all I want to do is sleep, eat and such.

I had all these aspirations to eat healthy but the motivation has gone away to keep up with that. I had lost 50 lbs. Got my blood sugar back to normal. But now since I'm back on the meds I just have this don't give a crap attitude.

The only thing that keeps me wanting to do stuff is my son. He's 4 years old. I have a daughter that is 6 months. My son really likes to play with me and I'm glad to teach him stuff. I keep busy with him but otherwise I'm pretty unmotivated.

My wife left again to hang out with her family and I wasn't invited so I'm sitting here thinking about ordering a pizza. I'd visit with my own family but I'm not much in the mood since they didn't offer me much help when I was trying to get off meds. Even though my dad is clearly psychotic which sucks. He acts like I only want to be with them when I need help. Well damn if you gonna put it that way I'll just not visit with you at all.