I'm pretty sure I have problems with my dopamine transmission. Even at my highest points of mania I knew I need a tranquilizer and as I was getting my first shot at my first stay in the hospital I remember saying I just need a tranquilizer...I need to sleep. This was before I had known anything about AAP's being called neuroleptics which is another word for tranquilizer.

The problem I have is that being on a tranquilizer constantly just does not seem right or fair but that is how they have figured to deal with me.

I have to send woe is me attitude, but I feel like I have some special powers that are being dampened by this. I consider it mind prison. I know unusual things have happened around me. I do believe in supernatural.

I hate to be the guy that seems crazy enough to believe he has superpowers but there are things that happen that can't be explained rationally. I believe people just get nervous when I'm amped up or have a lot of dopamine pumping...that is all. I'm probably doing unexplainable things with my mind but I'm not hurting myself or anyone else...quite the opposite.