I am currently at a group home and am here for the next 2 months sighs, its ok but it feels like being locked up in jail although good place im making some progress although im dreading this upcoming mother's day not that I wont celebrate it but I will be needing extra love an support on this as I feel like i might not be able to get through it .

I miss my Mom so much and the pain from the grieve just so overwhelms me and i feel like i could have done more but like maybe i dont know just thoughts that i want to talk to my new therapist about she is a psychologist but she seems to think even if we took precautions that we her an I should not dwelve into it quite yet till i can get my behaviors and suicidal thoughts under control but I understand that but yet also feel that exposure and talking about is the best policy any ideas on how to resolve this blip in the road between my therapist and I ?

I feel strong enough to do the EMDR but she says im not ready or strong enough yet , so she wants to start with resourcing first she says thats where i am at .