Being bi-polar I have my moments of getting angry or violent. I can only think of twice in my life that I stuck up for myself, out of many times I stood up to people.. and I got bashed A LOT.. I'm really over protective of the people I care about. The most hurtful thing is that only 1 of the people I stuck up for my entire life, (my best friend) had my back too.. and ironically most of the others either used it against me, said I did it for myself, or had other people gang up on ME in the end.. I'm sick of trying to be the protector of people only to get back stabbed by those very people in the end. I'm so hurt but I've been through this over and over again I'm not going to let it break me down n cry.. people would love to hear I committed suicide or love if I fed into the pain so I'm going to laugh and smile everyday just cuz I'm still here! BUT I promised myself I'll never fight anyone else's battles unless it's my children or they do the same for me!!