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Originally Posted by mindfullymindless
@alwayschanging2 thanks for the compliment on my writing.
Your absolutely right. I am looking for answers, advice, even opinions. I know no one here can give me any kind of diagnosis. I'm just hoping that someone will read my posts and maybe help me to understand. And you would be surprised how many people have called me a liar. Like, apparently, no one else in the world looks at mirrors and pictures and sees the same person every time, just never themselves. I told my therapist that about a year ago and she told me that's not possible, said I was exaggerating or lying, she wasn't sure which. That was the last time I saw her. And she wasn't the only one. A lot of people I've talked to about my problems (not pros) have not believed me or thought I was totally insane. Maybe I am, I don't know. But because of it. I don't trust anyone anymore. Even my wife thinks my problems all come from me being high. Even though I'm stone sober when talking about this stuff. I wont talk about it in any altered state because of the nature of it.
okay, I'm saying too much. I'm actually tearing up writing this.
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thanks for going into more detail about what you mean when you say aliens/alien to you. many mental disorders can have this symptom as can normal things like sleep deprivation, poor diet, ...and things like drugs/medications and alcohol use.
sometimes when I tell my treatment providers pictures and looking in the mirror seems unrecognizable (your word alien) or strange to me they ask me for more information...like what about the pictures and mirror reflection is strange or unrecognizable to me. then I elaborate on what about the pictures of me and my reflection in a mirror seems strange or unrecognizable. example today I looked in the mirror and my reflection seems a bit different to me then what I thought I should have looked like. I asked my wife it I looked strange, different to her because to me I do. she laughed and said honey you look the same but you feel different, the two just dont match right now. physically you are tired but emotionally you are happy, excited, calm so of course your image is going to look strange to you. lol she was right. I was basing what I was seeing (my physical appearance on my emotions and rigt now they dont match so my perception was I didnt recognize my reflection.