My anxiety with this stupid illness destroys me. I get myself all worked up over everything. I read a side effect of something and boom I have it, at least I convince myself I do. I get a call from my boss, boom I'm getting fired. Tickets to a concert, boom panic attack don't even get in the car to go. Simple tasks that everyday people get through seem to do and enjoy just weigh so much on me and ppl don't get it. My brother is great to me but I get this "snap out of it" mentality from him, even my mother. It's like people think I do it things bc I want to or can control my emotions. I just can't get my mind straight. It could be worse. Just a ranting vent. Thank you for reading. I hope everyone here has a good night n