I'm in this same boat too, but I don't like many people. I am too with my female best friend. She's like you. I wish someone appreciated me like you do for him. It gives me hope, but I'm crying alot how much it's all messed up and feeling I can't live up to expectation for them. All you can do is help. I hate it now, look at my post between of my two best friends you'll know. It's hell in that situation.