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Originally Posted by NyxAngel
Bipolar Disorder, yes, I switch from one extreme to the other, usually, however, I don’t top out the manic scale and there is no cycle, I can be “fine” one minute and one wrong sentence later can be nearly in a rage. In the last couple of years, I have begun to over-react to EVERYTHING, something as simple as a co-worker answering the phone incorrectly sets me off to screaming and cussing, a simple typo makes me want to throw things, and something as stupid as my mother buying the wrong brand of something can send me into tears. Even as I’m over-reacting I can tell that I’m doing it, but cannot seem to make myself stop. I feel like that spoiled teenager that got the wrong colored car for her birthday and flipped out about it. I hate being this way, I HATE myself. I fear that even my family, who are all used to dealing with mental illnesses, is starting to hate me, and I can’t even blame them for it. (No, they have never told me that they are tired of or that they hate me, this fear may very well be symptomatic.)
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I'm gonna call your GP out on this one. This doesn't sound anything like Bipolar Disorder to me. I'd bet every penny I have on this being Borderline, and I don't gamble (obviously, I can't actually diagnose you). Is there any way you can get a second opinion from a pdoc? Even one or two visits might help. You'd probably have to pay out of pocket, but it could be worth it. Seroquel is a heavy drug to be taking when you don't know if you even have Bipolar. I wouldn't trust a GP with that kind of medication, and I don't think they should be allowed to diagnose Bipolar (personal opinion). And yes, it will make you feel like a zombie every time you take it.
Do you happen to have access to a therapist? While Bipolar Disorder is primarily treated with drugs, Borderline is usually treated with long-term psychotherapy.
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Originally Posted by RisuNeko
I've never heard of bipolar without cycling.
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There are Bipolar I patients who only experience mania without depression. However, that's
very rare, and pdocs think that if the patient lives long enough, they'll eventually experience depression. They're not certain, though. I wonder if that's what NyxAngel's GP was referencing. In any case, that doesn't seem to be very relevant to you, NyxAngel, since you don't exclusively experience mania. It's odd that your GP would mention it.
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Originally Posted by NyxAngel
I thought of another question, though it's not strictly for Bipolar people. Do people have a hard figuring out your moods, i.e. they can't tell the difference between you being angry and you being exasperated? Does anyone else dwell on these instances? Does anyone else dwell on things they have done wrong (real or imagined)?
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I'm generally very aware of my moods. I used to have difficulty telling the difference between my normal mood swings and my bipolar mood swings, but I've figured it out now.
I only dwell on things when I'm depressed, because it becomes a lot easier to ruminated on real or imagined wrongdoings. However, I'm usually able to let things go pretty quickly.