I know exactly what you mean. It's so hard to talk at all after people tell you these things because you're worried everything that comes out of your mouth will be the same and you just don't know how to stop doing it. You think you're just talking but then things come out and you wonder, did I just lie about that or where did that come from? That wasn't even the truth. You word things wrong and they come out wrong and you regret ever saying anything in the first place.