My main concern now is not feeling like I don't want him around or touching me. I don't know why I can't just feel like I did when we were first together. He is not ugly but just a bit over weight but so am I. I pull away when he touches me and I just don't know why. I really would like to be able to be in a normal relationship. Not one that starts off hot then I get weird after falling in love.

I went to the doctors and they gave me a referral to see a psychologist but its a year waiting list. So that doesn't help me now.