I know how it feels, I have an abusive mother in my childhood too.
I also have a thread on it, and I share about my childhood and how it still effects me as an adult.

http://forums.psychcentral.com/relat...ackground.html

Mother's Day is today in USA, I want to say I love all mothers out there. Happy Mother's Day to all the mom and mom-to-be out there!
Whether good or bad mother, I still love you because you bring me to this world. This lifetime I'm unfortunate because I don't have a loving mother. All my life and still is subconsciously, I yearn for a loving mother; a mother that I know I don't have and never had.

I know there are good mother out there, there mother who sacrifice their everything for their children. I love you, your chidlren is very lucky to have you. I admire you!
I wish my next life when reincarnation, I will have a loving mother like you.

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY TO ALL!! I love you mom and love all the mother out there!