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Originally Posted by Restin
So, TWFM, how did the ending of therapy work out for you?. You explained above how you surrendered to the transference with T and glad that you did, and that it's been a positive experience. I've just learned to trust my therapist, too, but I'm terrified of being re-traumatized by the ending. Do you actually get to the place where you can take it?
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It worked out well after doing extreme intensive therapy. That little hurt wounded little girl was allowed to exist and get her needs met. At first by the therapist and now by me. She had to remind me over and over she would not knowingly hurt me or lie to me. It was her responsibility to reassure me as much as I needed of the things I feared if they could come at her hands. If it meant ten, twenty times in a session, so be it. She said it takes as long as it takes.I came in angry many days, because I was letting everyone and everything affect me, including her. She had to be accepting of all of me, and know that it was most always never about her. Like she tell her parents, "Behaviors are messages delivered in code, and it is the parents job to decipher the message, meet the need and not react to the behavior." That was her job too. All I had to do was be there. Of course, the therapist needs to be solid and have done their own work.
It's was scary, and often times I wanted to run. The only agreement that we made when we started was that I would be there for all my appointments and not cancel. If I cancelled I always had to have another appointment on the books. I only didn't show up once, and demanded the she do a phone session - not what I really wanted (be careful what you ask for).
Some people want to change, but sometimes are not ready to do the work, and therapy doesn't get far or goes terribly even with a good therapist. It's not the fault of either therapist or client. It's just what it is at the moment.
Restin, you sound like you are ready for the work, and it sounds like you've got a good therapist.