((CosmicRose)),

It sounds like your mother doesn't "know how" to connect and that is sad, sad for her, sad for you too. You did what you could and you called and left her a message, she may not know how to respond. Again, sad for her, sad for you. Unfortunately, that is what happens with people and the best we can do is to find our own way to our personal healing and realizing what it means and that it never meant you were not worthy of having a closer relationship with your mother.