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Originally Posted by Brianna_88
Hi! I'm new here  I don't want to get deep into my past circumstances quite yet, but there's something that's been really bugging me and I thought I might get some insight here at least.
I'm in my late 20's now, but I am seriously craving all things childish/tween. I've been starting to read kid's books (right now I'm pretty into American Girl books). I love going to toy stores and have gotten a few stuffed animals and new clothes for one of my old dolls. I'm kind of thin, and I can fit into clothing from the girl's section, and so have been shopping there a little more frequently.
I don't know how to fully explain it. I'm just really obsessed with being younger again. It's been going on for a while. I try to keep it in check. I don't want to go overboard. But inside, I almost feel jealous of kids. I see girls riding bikes in the neighborhood, shopping, whatever, and feel so much yearning to go back to that kind of life. I want girl talk and sleepovers and innocence. It's totally not like a creepy paedophilia kind of thing!! I want to make that clear. It's just like I have a strong feeling that I want to be one of the girls again. I want to be that age and get to do all of those things. I want to have to worry about homework, and soccer practice, and making friendship bracelets for my best fried. I take walks in the evening and see all these great families having dinner together or hanging out in their yards, etc. and just SO want that. You know?
I don't know. It's weird. I'm having a super hard time growing up and feeling like an adult. I have a lot of stress and responsibility in my life, and I am completely responsible and adult-like most of the time, but I feel like that's not the real me. I'm playing a role then.
I almost feel like I have two different people inside of me...one that lives in the real word and is pretty adult and well adjusted, and then the younger girl who feels like she's not getting enough time to be herself. I don't know if that makes sense at all, haha. I'm sorry.
I'm just trying to figure out what type of condition might cause this sort of thing. I've Googled it a little and it seems like sometimes people with Borderline Personality Disorder have feelings like this, but when I look at the other symptoms, it doesn't always sound like me. I guess this could be considered a change in identity perception? But I don't really have too many impulsive behaviors, and my relationships are okay. I have a great husband and a good marriage. I don't have many friends, but there might be lots of reasons right now for that. I got all the way through college. I don't know. I just don't think that's what is going on.
But I'd really love to find more out about this whole wanting to be a kid again thing. I'm hoping someone here can help give me some ideas. Thank you!
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around here where I live its perfectly normal at any age to want things like sleep overs, girl talk and all that stuff we did as teens. being adults can be hard sometimes with all the responsibilities, work, family and other obligations.
my wife and I full fill this by taking college classes, being members to a womens group and having sleep overs with our friends.
its relatively easy to work these kinds of things into ones life. my wife and I just go to our local college, open up the course catalog and register for what ever class we want to. when we dont have the money sometimes talking with the instructors will get us "audit" status (thats when you attend the classes, do the work but dont get graded) and sometimes if its a course that either one of us can use as part of our jobs we talk with our supervisors\bosses. who may have employee scholarships. We also fit some of the colleges community scholarships, state and federal scholarships/grants.
for the sleep overs we just talk with our friends and say hey how about a girls night out/sleep over. where should we go (one of our homes, a hotel that has enmities like spa, pool, room service....) and plan a weekend of it. imagine 8 women in our homes back porch in pj's, sleeping bags and all kinds of yummies, movies and what ever else we want to do...
my point theres no age limit on doing the things you want to do, its all a matter of if you want to do it and making it happen by reaching out to your friends and setting the plans in motion.
as for the wearing tween clothing well thats behind me thanks to having children but a good sewing machine and a college sewing class and i can have what ever clothing I want any time I want, just by visiting the local sewing and crafts store for patterns, cloth and other sewing supplies.