I am around ur age and I kno the feeling. I had no childhood so it could be that. I also kno that my wife's T, whom I've met multiple times and who even when meeting ppl se can't help but do the whole T thing. Se paid attention to everythig I did as said and watched my behavior and my wife has told me sometimes that talk about me. I don't care they can say whtever it's their time. Anyways she really believes I'm borderline. My T on the other spoke of it but never told me I was. Do I have a real diagnoses no, wish I did cuz then I'd be more proactive in learning to deal.

I was never into the girly stuff so I can't relate to that but I do relate to just wanting to be with friends and playin basketball or get into trouble. I'm an avid gamer but I do it all in cycles I've found out. I'll go heavy gaming one game for an entire month and then just abruptly stop and switch to something else. I do the same with food and exercise. It's just me and I don't kno if any of this helped but it may be a starting pt. if u have a T talk to them if not maybe find one and just to some u work.