i have struggles with mother's day too. my mother never outright abused me or anything, but she did kind of emotionally neglect me and not always protect me as much as she could/should have (i grew up in a home with an alcoholic stepdad...enough said about that..).

but because of my trauma issues as a whole, mother's day is hard for me because i see my siblings all have kids. one of my sister's has a two-year-old son and is pregnant with her second child, so it's always about her because my mom makes it seem like having a child is 'the' best thing ever a person could do for some reason...despite the fact she has a lot of grandkids already...and treats my sister like her having kids is a miracle when she has never had issues conceiving to begin with..just an odd way of thinking..but just knowing i will not have kids because of my mental health issues really hurts me...and then of course people don't understand it either and think if you worked hard enough and 'really' wanted to, you (people in general) could just have a kid and live the live any other person could. it's just not so simple...

anyway, yeah...mother's day brings up a lot of things for me....sorry you are struggling too.