Oh, I forgot to say, monkeybrains21, your comment about getting into cycles of interest in certain things sounds really familiar! I tend to do that too. The things I get hung up on are kind of weird though, and still usually revolve around the whole childhood thing. Like in the early Springtime I get super into Winnie the Pooh stuff, and then come Summer (which I hate, and tend to "hibernate" through) I get obsessed with Autumn and Halloween and all things cozy and having to do with Fall. I watch a show from my childhood, Home Improvement a lot. I just crave that family life that they have in that show. Come Autumn I'm already getting excited for Christmastime and cold weather, and in the Winter I get obsessed with Christmas and also the Nutcracker (the ballet and the story and the music). And I also tend to read the same books or at least same sort of theme of books during different parts of the year. It's just compulsive. The same with music. It's like my inner life is stuck on this strange routine of self-soothing. But it just always feels not quite real enough, and not quite satisfying. It's hard living so much of your life colored through fantasy lenses. I have no idea if any of this makes any sense :S haha Thanks for letting me ramble though!