I am saying **** it to my friends. I can't do this anymore hiding in this shell. I told them to **** off and never hurt me or bother trying to tell me how crazy I am. They can come over and hurt me and beat me do what they want to me.

I can't live in this isolation hell anymore.

Mother's day made me so much more hateful my mother is in the other room and just loathing my existence and I just wish they all cared. I'm the suicidal story and going to hell. **** I did my best and I shall die horribly for it.