I stopped trying to explain to people, Im just "sick" now when Im not well.

I get the "think positively" a hell of a lot. I have a grateful journal and I CBT just about every negative or anxious thought... yeah dont think I can think more positively than that.... I've gone for months at a time plastering the smile on faking it til I make it.. I can go 6 months before I need to be hospitalised for depression again. Gone through that pattern enough times to know that "thinking positively" is not a cure nore helpful to be constantly told it. Now when I hear it, it triggers madness because I really really tried that and got no where... its so disheartening to hear people minimise my illness by saying I just need to think more positively.