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Old Jun 24, 2007, 09:53 AM
terrieL terrieL is offline
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I really need some help with my situation desperately!!!

My husband and I married 1 1/2 yrs ago. He is so sweet, affectionate, loving, caring and loves me to death. He also suffers from depression and is on meds. He has been abusing cocaine a few times a year and is also an alcoholic.

I knew he abused cocaine but never understood the drug or its affects and he promised he would never use again so I believed him (naive). I also knew he drank but he controlled it back then and lately he has really dove into it and can't stop. He drinks 6-12 beers everyday and all this is causing lies, deception, sneaking, hiding and he blames me for him doing it. All this is devasting for me.
I am so hurt and cannot trust him anymore so I figured that at this point before our marriage gets any more involved and felt the need to escape from the pain I filed for divorce.

I had spoken to several people and they believe I am better off with my decision.

Now that he has moved out I am feeling remorse and after searching for more answers and alot more reading on his depression and drug/alcohol abuse I have alot more understanding. But what am I to do at this point?

I spoke with him yesterday and mentioned to him about attending marriage couseliing and he said no its over and I need to get on with my life. Then before he hung up he said he is so depressed and misses me so much and loves me I told him I feel the same way but we hung up crying.

I am so pissed that all this has happened to our beautiful marriage and I so love him still and I want this to work out but I don't know how.

My sister reminded me that I have alot at stake here because he has no assests and I have my own home and retirement 401k and I am still under the statue of limitations. She is right so I do have to think about that but my heart still wants him back. I want him without his addictions because that is what drove the nail in the coffin in the first place.

Though he did mention he has cut back on his drinking and is going to seek help next week.

Do you think he will quit his drinking? What can I do at this point? I really don't want to lose him but nor do I want to lose everything I have either. I want him back and to really try to work on his addicitions and I will be there 110% to support him.

Any advice is most welcome please
Thank you.