TWF how do you generally handle anger and conflict? What do you do when your feelings are hurt? I wonder if perhaps you are protecting your T from your difficult feelings about her and about the therapy process. How do you process and express your anger with the people you are closest to? Does it feel like your relationship with your therapist could survive anger, frustration or disappointment? I guess I'm wondering where those feelings go when you're in therapy. Another possibility is that the nature of your therapy is such that it doesn't require or create the kind of intense relationship that is likely to generate those kinds of feelings.