I suspect then that you're not allowing yourself to experience all your feelings about therapy and the therapist. It'll be a huge turning point the first time you tell her that you're upset with her or wish that she'd handled something differently. I have similarly been uncomfortable with angry feelings and generally just swallowed my hurt feelings and disappointment with people. I also felt very caught off guard and unable to engage well with them when they were upset with me. I'm working on all this stuff and it's a pretty cool process. Last week I told my therapist in real time (this is new, I have been able to tell her awhile later about something that angered me in session, but never before in the moment) that I didn't like how she was addressing something. I said it irritably too. She coped well and apologized later. It was kind of great.