Hi Tokidoki,

I too had abuse issues in the past. I can only share my experience, for everyone's experience is different.

Do you need to feel worse first? In my opinion, probably - at least I did. I remembered repressed memories 16 years ago. I was very confused and depressed and was in the hospital 4 or 5 times over a year and a half period. I have dealt well with those issues and continue to see a therpist once a month just to keep things in check.

What I found was that I needed to discuss some things that I remembered because they were triggering me and blocking me from growing. Once I could identify those triggers, name them, and acknowledge them I could move forward. When something would trigger me then I could say to myself "oh that, okay I know why I felt bad just now but it's okay i know what it is" and then move on and let it go.

I still dont' think I talked about EVERYTHING. In fact, every once in a while a thought or concept comes up in therapy that explains some of my depression and I'm like "wow, I never thought of that before". The difference is now, those thoughts are nearly as intrusive or painful, moreover, they are welcomed as another way to move on and become better.

Good luck and definitely discuss with your therapist. Sounds like you are comfortable enough to do so and that's a great thing!

Tranquility