Had a good session with T today. First time in a very long time I have felt positive about my future. Then T asked if we could end early unless I had something else I needed to discuss. Of course I said no (dam pride/ego/shame) And then btw T will be away so next appointment won't be for a month! I have trouble waiting 2 weeks!!! I have come a long way and I am doing better but I am terrified of going backwards or needing T. I am very attatched and I'm sure he knows because I told him and I wrote him a note. Yet, we never talked about it. He did reassure me that he would be there if I needed him. I am even more afraid/ashamed of reaching out before our appointment because I feel that he is pushing me out of the nest! Has this ever happened to anyone? How did you cope? I know in my heart its time to move on but its the first time I ever relied on someone for support without judgement or obligation and it felt so safe and warm and I am about to loose this. Thank you.