I've been super depressed lately, I've been thinking that death is the only cure, I've even tried it a few times b4 but someone must want me here so *shrug*, I've just been worried I might be inclined to make another attempt...I'm sure not careful its like I'm numb and don't care what happens to me.

everything is just overwhelming for me right now, My boyfriend has left the country for two months which I think was the last straw. He was like one of the reason I wake up in the morning, something I had to look forward to besides my dog ('.')

I'm just so gloomy but I pretend like i'm ok around my friends and family b/c they aren't any help. It's like I can't really depend on anyone. I'm always available for other ppl but when I need someone I'm left alone...I'm always alone, I always feel like such a burden.

I wish there was a place I could get away to for awhile, kind of like the place they made me go my last two suicide attempts it really helped to just escape from the world for a week or so...only at some point I have to face whats waiting for me

are there places like that?