Thank you both very much. It's nice to hear support from others. That makes me feel better just hope the feeling lasts. Yea my sister can't relate much at all were half sisters and I get the analytical/depression side from my dad's side. My grandmother committed suicide due to it I never met her but I guess it's okay to admit maybe it is genetic and take it at face value that I may just be this way and accept that I overthink without panic. It's just scary when you see these images in your head and you're the one doing them.