First Welcome...I'm sorry you are going through such a rough time...Sounds like you were in a hospital before when you feel this way...sounds like with the language you are using it would be a good time to call your pdoc or T ... If you can't get a hold of them...probably a good idea to go to the hospital...what do you think...

Also, you may want to have the trigger icon the red circle with an "x" through it so others who may be sensative to the words you use will stay away and be safe...I'll see if I can get that added...Ok?