It's also that I've lost my direction in life recently, I should just take a full time job but I have a degree and I have been to graduate school, though I didn't get my masters degree (that's a story I've written some about in other posts on the forums). I am also probably sentimental about my parents house to a degree that is unhealthy. I work part time at a job that sort of lets me use some of the knowledge and skills I have, but it's part time for a non-profit organization so I'm not making much money. I also have trouble staying focused at work, if my boss was less lenient I'd probably be unemployed.