So basically, yes it is a goal for me to see a therapist again once I have the funds for it, it definitely helps me as an outlet. And I definitely want healthy boundaries with my boyfriend. As for my social circle, as I said my former friends have no interest in me which is more hurtful than I ever really understood it could be, and as a result I'm worried no new people would want to be my friend because I seem to be... "too much"? I'm confused and I'm trying really hard. My illness has gotten in the way of so many things, I'm trying to be self-employed right now so unfortunately that's one less place for me to meet new people. I'm trying to come up with an action plan that fixes this for me and him and us.