PC, I Love you all very much so so much ((((PC)))). Right now im doing absolutely terrible. I'm 17 for those who don't know and not only is my depression hurting me mentally but now health and physically too. I'm expericing and have been for a year sleeping problems, and most of all aches and pains in my body, it hurts so bad in my joints I cry. I'm so so stressed right now. My heart is giving me problems and I've researched depression can cause heart disease,attacks, and other heart related things. Guys my parents won't let me go to a hospital, I am dieing, if nothing else in my mind. I want to get checked in and be helped, if my depression continues I will loose my self. I have high cholesterol and I weight only 129 Ib's I'm "under" weight for a male my age, and I feel sick alot, very tired, no appetite....I'm loosing myself. What do I do? I'm underage my parents have to do everything, I don't want to die PC, I want to marry some day and have a daughter,....why is my depression so stubburn......my mind thinks so drastic so complex.......oh my god PC, I feel I'm loosing my own self trust....

Pray for me
Dustin