Keb,
I often feel on auto pilot too....just keep plugging away,numb,doing what I need to do.....function,thats it.
I think part of being a mom is putting the needs of others before ourselves,that is behaviour truly automatic.
In my times of clear thought however I also know that if I dont take care of myself Im really not "there" for my family anyways.
Dont put your needs on hold,do what you need to do for yourself......good luck