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Originally Posted by pamela33
I feel so guilty, I feel like all of this is my fault. And I don't see myself as being able to move on from this situation. I miss him when I don't talk to him. He's the love of my life and I always think of myself 10 years from now and I think I'll still love him. I haven't seen him since August 2014. Everything was ok for the past 3 months; he didn't really ignore me. But now the other girl is back in town from college and he's starting to ignore me again and it hurts so bad; it makes me cry. I don't know what to do I feel so lost.
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I'll admit I haven't read your entire post, I read half of it and skimmed over the rest but the one thing I gathered from it, this guy sounds like a complete asshole. I see nothing at all to redeem him and his behaviour. Why do you feel guilty?
This is not want you want to hear, but you need to get away from this guy. Not trying to get closer to him again!! You deserve so much better.
I know it hurts, I know it's difficult. But I think you're in love with the person he used to be, or the version of him you've created in your mind. He is not that person. Stop making excuses for him. I understand you feel like you could never love anyone else but I'm telling you, he is NOT the love of your life! This guy is bad for you. You need to take care of yourself..
I wish I had more advice for you on how to let go but that is something I'm also struggling with, I have no idea how to let go. But one thing I do no is the first step is no contact. However difficult that is..... you have to find a way to move on.