Actually for long I have been avoiding any emotionally intense situation .. when a friend tells me he thinks I am the best he has ever met or when he uses these intimate friendship stickers on facebook chats .. it just makes me feel disgusted . Another thing is when mum tries to kiss me or hug me or so or when I have to help someone through an emotional dilemma .. the same feeling I may do that but even still very reluctant .. I can't even call anybody I know a friend and my brother I keep telling him I don't care about u u r not my brother but in the deep I care .. but it is just the disgust of intimacy . What is that ?