Hey Cash.

I have been where you are. Mania is like a fire. It starts contained, can get out of control, and might just burn everything down if you're not careful.

I have to say though that I am really enjoying your posts. I believe I know a lot of how you are feeling and i know that it really just helps to unload and vent the goofy *** gobbledygook bubbly lava inside. I wish I had done it here last time I was like this instead of all over my normal friends! I feel like reading them some of your posts and being like see! It's not just me!

There is something beautiful and perfectly illustrative of a certain aspect of mania in your posts. There is a thread of sparkle and magic and seductive heat in mania that is undeniably intoxicating and dare I say enjoyable. But it is a terrible beast. That is also undeniable. The paradoxical nature of the universe.

Please keep bringing us you mania. Just please make sure you bring us what follows as well. I believe it is so important to keep talking. Stay open. Let us know what is going on with you even when it starts to get bad.

Cash you are Manic. What is wrong with you (as you keep asking) is that you are Bipolar and you are Manic. I know how hard it can be to be totally honest with the husband but you really need to. Like really really need to. And your pdoc. Read them some of your posts.




(I want everyone to know I am not trying to glorify mania is any way and don't anyone be mad at me or at least tell me they are miffed by what I say because it will trigger me to feel like crap. I'm very sensitive right now. Ha like that's news around here. Right)