No, I'm not sexually active. I wouldn't dare be at this stage because, like I said, I would think of myself as a paedophile even if the girl was 10 years older than me. And no, I have never acted on these awful thoughts. I would never want to do that to a child. It sends shivers down my spine just thinking about it. I just want to stop thinking about it, and whenever I have a breakthrough and my mind is distracted I go "Hey you've stopped thinking about it", and BOOM, my mind straight away back locked onto it. arrrrggggghhhhhhh