Hi Sophie, firstly well done on taking the step in quitting a job that clearly caused you so many problems. Obviously it wasn't the job for you, and it can be so easy to have a job drag you down and down and down to the point where, however much you want to, you can't see a way out of it/everything, and depression/the job just becomes "a way of life" or even worse than that. So well done!!!
And while it is completely understandable how you may feel a failure, please try to remind yourself that you're not!! You have done a good thing........you've been strong enough to say "enough" to the job, you were wanting more for yourself, you were wanting better in the way you've been feeling for yourself, you haven't been prepared to just settle/accept........, to wait while things just get worse and worse and worse. And your well-being is just priceless, so walking away from something that was jeopardising that........well can't fault yourself on that!!!!
And like you said, it's not even been two weeks..........with the way the job was making you feel alone........you're probably going to need more time to recoup from it a bit, and accept that it was not a failing in not wanting to carry on with it.
And now lack of routine, lack of things to fill that big chunk of time, bit of isolation..........but remember that drive to do something for yourself when you decided to quit, and try to keep it rolling a bit, you do matter and you matter just as much as ever.
Now more stuff for yourself, yes?? You've come a long way, don't let it stop now!!!
Maybe finding a routine?? Maybe finding things to occupy yourself between jobs/things you want to do?? Maybe exploring different job options out there?? Maybe looking for new doors you could open?? Maybe getting help with the depression if that needs to be a priority?? Maybe reaching out to some of those friends if they might not know that you need them around, or even if you use them as a distraction/do something/s with them??
But remember if you want to talk to people who might understand how hard it may be for you right now, we're here too.........so give us a try, hey??
You're not alone
Alison