i have been feeling fairly okay the last while until the last few days.
i think at times the dissociation comes from feelings of panic, darkness/fear inside, etc. so, once the panic feeling starts, i tend to soon after dissociate a mild to moderate or severe degree.
i have not particularly felt stressed despite having stress in my life lately...i have not really had a trigger for this either.
it is just difficult to go through because it's unsettling, uncomfortable, and it makes it hard to function or stay 100% present when the dissociation comes on.
i find myself trying to fight through it or take a med to help lessen it, but nothing really helps.
i feel almost afraid just to be alone and feeling this because it feels like i am stuck in it with no way out while it's happening.
i know it's not a regular panic attack, but i'm not quite sure what it is, if it's a trauma response for an unknown reason or what....a type of emotional/body flashback...or what.
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