Thank you all for responding, apologies for not replying until now.

I have since been to the doctors, on several occasions now and, to put it bluntly, they were useless. The 8 minute turnaround Doctors have to generally work with now means suffers like us do not get the proper attention we need and mis-diagnosis are all to common. So we must do the baseline work ourselves. The doctors gave me a 4 week sick note on the understanding if I wanted to return to work earlier then I could, and when I approached the doctor 2 weeks later as I wanted to return to work, they charged me £18 for a letter to allow me to go back to work. The whole incident caused a lot of problems at work and was starting to become a rahter big issue. I have also spoken to the Occupational Therapist and they confirmed possible Misophonia, although not everything was discussed as job security was a concern.

Thanks sideblinded, that was a good call. I have looked into it and all of the principal symptoms of low levels I have, except the weight gain. I looked into any natural foods that can rebalance the levels but it would seem a prescription, albeit it medical or supplemental, would be needed which means another visit to the rubbish Doctors. There are actually 3 working at surgery and I have visited them all and felt the gentle push towards the door the moment you try and open up. May try once more with this one or visit a new doctor for a Dopamine blood test.

I have registered and had a phone consultation with the mental health service offered by the county NHS and am awaiting my referral. I have also decided that a Psychologist may be the best route for my private referral and they maybe able to offer the most help so have a list of candidates I will be contacting.

On trying to self diagnose, and I am more than aware of the potential wrong directions that can bring, I believe I maybe classed as:

Someone with low Dopamine levels
Someone who suffers from Misophonia
Someone who suffers from being an Introvert
Someone who is definitely a HSP
Someone with internal anger management issues

There may or may not be other chemical or neuro-chemical reasons added to the mix, but the collection above does match me quite well.

I have always been someone who does not "let it out". I never cry, I never shout at people, I don't get into fights (although sometimes I really want to). I don't have a release, never have. I just keep taking it in. I'm like a glass that is full to the brim and each new issue overflows the glass and too much of that and you have a panic attack or palpitations. For me its just a build up of everything. I have always liked being alone in my room or flat, and in the last year or so have loved, even craved silence. I'm tired of talking to people just for the sake of talking. I'm tired of being around them, and their noise, and their happy chat about things I care nothing about. There have been times when someone is speaking to me and inwardly I am fuming, outwardly Im trying so so hard to smile and answer and bring an end to the conversation before I let them know I'm in a real bad mood because they are talking to me. This happens regularly at work. Got to keep up appearances. It drains the hell out of me.

One of the things I most look forward to, that makes me genuinely happy, is knowing I have a weekend coming up where I don't have to do anything or go anywhere. I cannot be bored at home by myself. If there is something coming up, a party or a get together with some friends, truth is I dread it and hate the fact that my evening is lost because of this. And here in lies the problem. These days I just don't want to do anything, go anywhere, speak to people. I just want to stay away from it all, from people, stay away long enough for you to maybe miss it and WANT to go, do and say.

I watched a some episodes from a series called Mountain Men a few weeks ago, and all I could think of is how, in a small way, lucky they were because of the isolation they had. No people, no people noise, no people getting in the way, causing X Y and Z issues for you in your daily life. City life is just not for me, yet its where everything of mine is unfortunately. I must struggle through every day. I wear headphones from the moment I leave the home, walk to work with them on (not the safest thing to do) and do the entire walk looking mainly at the ground as just the sight of some people - the ones you know are just loud and arrogant get my blood boiling. The I sit at work with them on and do the same all the way till I get back. Even at home sometimes when there is noise in the street or neighbours being inconsiderately loud like playing football on a wooden floored apartment above at 5am. I just want to shut the world out, not see it, not hear it. It seems the only way I can get by at the moment.

If I'm in the quiet, and have my own time I am happier, not happy, but happier. During the working week, its hell and I carry a rucksack full of contempt and anger with me all day. I feel angry inside at my partner to, for not understanding fully or at least not taking the time to look into my issues on her own, research it, read forums such as this to get an insight. But its not her fault, and some people do not approach a problem the same way as I do so I know I should not expect the same, I just do not want the inevitable conversations that will come up and the feeling she doesn't understand me. We talk but not deeply about this. Peoples minds work differently, probably a good thing hers is not like mine as what a couple that would make! She does give me my alone time and I am thankful for that.

It is a horrible place I am in at the moment, and the only rest-bite I get is when I shut myself away from the outside and the people there that do nothing except anger me. I used to be the person that could let things slide, defeating any anger with logic and reasoning. I cannot say when things changed as it was gradual and not noticed at first so there was little chance I could do anything about it. Those days, things were so much simpler