Well, by the sheer grace of.... ??? I've managed to stay out of the hospital. The last several days have been one of my lowest points to date. I nearly went inpatient Sat night (therapist telling me "yes you need to" because of the internal threats the system was giving me; then nearly went in sunday night. but again stayed out by the "skin of my teeth". Monday I checked in again with p nurse (like sunday) and today I tried translating all she said to my new t. That didn't go over well. We nearly had a lockdown (where no one in the system can move the body at all or speak). Thankfully T said something totally random and the alter who was already in front was able to break free and respond. Ironically, it's that alter who's communication wasn't heard or understood from T.
I'm glad pnurse gets us. I just don't know what to do about the therapist angle. So we've been upset and crying again this afternoon (the constant body pain from physical therapy REALLY doesn't help - oh yeah, I was going to take a pain med...).
I feel like throwing in the therapy towel and going it alone.