I have mentioned time and time again my dysphoria and how i feel,testing the waters by saying I'm genderfluid and my dad SAID okay but he seems to be in denial and my parents call me heavily gendered pet names and the likes and i want a haircut but they don't want ti to look too masculine. They want me to stop binding my chest. They will probably never agree to get me on T which sucks because i wanna do it before I'm 18 which is next year and i just have so much dysphoria. Life can be nice sometimes but it kills me to think i may never truly be cmfortable. I will probably never get the hormones or surgery because it would upset them so much I'm their only afab child. Maaannn dysphoria was bad today. I vaguely said before that my body didn't feel right and thT it was a phase ,which i do have phases. They never last long. I've been struggling with this since i was in middle school,I'd say 7th grade. I knew i wanted to be a boy. But even before that i think. I have lame memory but yeah. I just want the rest of society to see me as male. I FEEL more male than anything ... I Don't know anymore i hate feeling this.This sucks.