Scorpiosis, thank you. I think you're right. You "know" me very well. I always deny those feelings but they don't go away. Maybe you're right and I should be more curious about them. It can't hurt because I know I'm not going to do anything, so what could be wrong with talking? My T would welcome that discussion, I know. So would I, just to see where it will lead, and maybe I could stop feeling shame about it.