Ok. I maybe in a relationship with this girl Ann. She's a very bright genuine person who is the makings of a true lover and best friend. She has lots of potential of being someone who would stick by till the end. I couldn't ask for me if it happens, but we do have sexual tension it's brewing hot and passionate when we will see each other it will ignite.

Ok this is my one issue it's me...

She seems a true hearted person she sought me out. I'm afraid to objectify her as a fetish
hence why it be my second interracial relationship since my 2 girlfriend Zoe. My family and some family friends are racist to a degree I'm not. Not at all I see her not her skin. Like Zoe I did the same except she was a cold hearted person annas the opposite. She has a stable upbringing and great loving family. I'm kinda excited to date her to experience a person with such passion and caring for others and found me sexy was so amazing.

I fear ill say something stupid. My parents know most of my friends are black, but when I tell them who it's by their name. I have alot of other races of friends from Saudi Arabia, India, Pakistan, Latin American countries and Africa so on. My parents I mean my dad who I don't believe he is. He just say racist things in things he gets grouchy over. Ik he doesn't believe it by how he acts and talks.

Dating her isn't, "hey mom and dad I'm destroying the gene pool." Thing never has been besides my parents don't care unlike family friends we know who believe that garbage.

My point is I have a fetish for black women and I don't need that pornographic racist bigotry to be apart of me. She's not a piece of meat. I'm confused because I don't know what to do with my body feels. She seriously gets me off, but I had to take a step back re evaluate myself and force to think am I worried because I'm racist or not?.

Ik this may sound horrible I don't believe she is lesser or better so she doesn't know this. I don't patronize nor treat her any different in anything. I want her to be happy. I trust her and like her alot.

I fear sex would make this too obvious and I don't know how I should approach this within myself she did nothing wrong. I am worried what she thinks...

I felt the easiest option is to go with it. I don't feel shame if I have sex with her. I have had interracial sex once before it's the same as any other sex out their.

I'm afraid my fetish and I objectify and not appreciate over time because of something so stupid as skin color. Maybe I'm over thinking, but I want to love her not put her anywhere. I want her to be my best friend love has no bounds I'm white but she didn't care what others thought. I thought how affluent modest she is and how she treats me right is hot because our sex be passionate mutual and hot.

I hope this tension breaks we let loose on one another. Lets say her skin had nothing to do with her capturing me.

Any thoughts suggestions if we date? As for this thing and sex wise. It's not anywhere else I have this with her.